Song Stories: Gone Away

To anyone who has ever asked me, I have always said that my favorite song is Gone Away by The Offspring. Most people who know the song give me a weird look after I say that. Not because they think it’s a bad song, but because it’s a very sad song. I think the reason I connect with this song so well is because every time I hear it, it makes me think of someone.

Back when I was in high school, I lost my aunt (my father’s sister) to breast cancer. She had been fighting it for a while. She’d had a double mastectomy years before, but it wasn’t enough to keep it from coming back. The doctors did all they could, but it wasn’t enough. The last time I saw her, she was bed ridden. She was almost unrecognizable to me. There were a couple of times when I wanted to walk out of the room because I couldn’t stand seeing her that way.

Our visit ended and we drove the three or four hours back home. Two days later, we got the call. I was at work (a cashier at a local hardware store) at the time. I got called into the back to take a phone call. I remember thinking that it was odd because they were very strict about employees receiving phone calls. It was my Dad. He only had to speak the first word for me to know what happened. I could tell from his voice. To this day, I’m still not sure what he said. I immediately broke down into tears.

I was pretty much numb throughout the funeral process. Much like not remembering my father’s words, a lot of what happened during this time is a blur for me. My aunt was one of the most amazing women I had ever met. She was smart, funny, and kind to everyone. Not one person who ever met her had a bad thing to say about her. Especially after seeing her right before it happened, it hit me pretty hard.

About a year later, this song came out. I was instantly mesmerized by it. I listened to it over and over again. The more I heard it, the more I associated it with my aunt. When he sang the line “And if I could trade, I would” there were times back then that I actually felt that way.

I’d think, “Here was a woman who was a wife, mother, and grandmother. She was loved by so many people. I’m just a dumb kid. Maybe it would be better if it were me instead of her.”

As time went on, I felt less and less like I should trade places. However, my love for this song has never waivered. Not only is it the song that touches me the most, but it is a reminder of the brave woman who was taken from the world too soon.

I love you, my aunt. I know I’ll never live up to you, but I hope that you’re proud of who I’ve become.

My Weekly Soundtrack 1/28/14

It’s been awhile……since I’ve done one of these posts.

In my defense, I’ve been busy…and lazy. Anyways, it’s time for me to force my music upon you once again. These are just songs that have been stuck in my head at one point or another during the past week. Let’s get on with the show!

Up first, the song that inspired the first line of this post. Here’s some Staind.

Second on this list is The Kill, by 30 Seconds to Mars.

Our third song for today is Away by Breaking Benjamin.

Fourth is Flaw with their song Recognize.

In the fifth spot is Green Day with their song Boulevard Of Broken Dreams.

Sixth is Classic Rock Song by Stephen Lynch.

Our last song for this week is Race Against Myself by The Offspring.

Well, folks, there you have it. Another week’s worth of music that has been floating around in my head. I know it’s not pleasant being in my head, but be thankful. You only have to be in there once a week. I’m in there all the time.

My Weekly Soundtrack: 11/12/13

It’s time for me to post a soundtrack on a weird date….11/12/13. They said something about this on the local news this morning (because people are rushing to get married today just because of the date) and I couldn’t help but thinking, “Who cares?” There’s been a date like this every year since 2003 (1/2/03). There’ll be one next year, too (12/13/14). Granted, this won’t happen again after that for 100 years, but, still, who cares? It’s just another day…

There are no themes this week. Just songs that I’ve heard this week. Onto the list….

Up first is Hollow, by Submersed.

The second song for today is Enemy, by Sevendust.

Third is Pieces by Dark New Day.

Fourth is I Get It, by Chevelle.

The fifth song is Sorry, But Your Friends Are Hot by Zebrahead.

Metallica’s Hero of the Day is up sixth. I know a lot of Metallica fans didn’t care for Load, but I like it. I don’t care much for ReLoad, but I do like Load.

The seventh, and final, song is called Slim Pickens Does the Right Thing and Rides the Bomb to Hell, by The Offspring.

My Weekly Soundtrack 10-1

It’s Tuesday again, my friends. That means it’s time for another installment of my weekly soundtrack. I know, I know. Control yourselves, though. Lining up to bow down to my impeccable taste in music may seem necessary, but, I assure you, it isn’t.

With that in mind, I decided to do a theme this week. Not in the music, as it is just random songs, but in the way I present them. I bet you’ll never guess what it is, either. Continue reading

My Weekly Soundtrack: 8/13

I didn’t do one of these last week. I have a good reason, too: I just didn’t feel like it. What? That’s not a good reason? Oh, well. It’s a reason, anyways.

There are no themes or hidden messages in this week’s set. They’re just songs chosen at random. Hopefully, they aren’t ones I’ve picked before. I like to try not to use the same ones over and over again.
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My Weekly Soundtrack: Remakes

I know I haven’t done any of these soundtracks the past couple of Tuesdays, but I have good reasons. Last Tuesday was my birthday, and the Tuesday before that was my wife’s. As much as I like sharing music with you all, I’m not going to be giving up birthday time with my family to do it.

In honor of my return from break, I will be doing a special soudtrack. This week I will be focusing on a particular type of song: remakes. Continue reading

My Weekly Soundtrack 6/11

Hola amigos. Today is Tuesday. That means it is time for me to force you into listening to my music. Ok, well I can’t actually force you into listening to it. You can choose not to play the songs that I pick. I just like to pretend I have some sort of power over you.
While I have your attention, you should go check out this awesome post by BrainRants. It’s all kinds of amazing. Onto the music!
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