As some of you may know, I’ve had problems with my back for years. It has caused me to constantly be in pain, which has caused me to constantly be on pain medication. To be quite frank, I’m tired of it. I’m tired of always hurting. I’m tired of popping pills. I’m tired of having what I can, or cannot, do dictated by the level of pain that I’m in. I’m just tired of it all.
I started seeing (another) new doctor recently. He suggested doing something that another doctor of mine talked about doing years ago. The other doctor didn’t do it because he saw it as a last resort option, and, at the time, we weren’t there yet. Now, I am.
When I saw my old doctor, he did a series of epidural shots. He’d shoot pain medication straight into the nerve that covered the part of my back that’s hurting. It worked very well, taking away most of my pain, but the shot only lasted for a month or two at a time. Not only that, but it is a procedure that, while covered by insurance, was still too expensive. So, I only ended up having three of them done. During the second one, he told me about the last resort option. Basically, the last resort was that, instead of pain medicine, they’d shoot the nerve with another substance, and it would completely kill the nerve.
The plus side to this is that I’d never feel anything down there ever again. The down side to this is that I’d never feel anything down there ever again.
Back then, I didn’t do it because there were still things I hadn’t tried yet. Now, I’ve tried everything: I’ve been to dozens of doctors, had multiple MRIs, CT scans, and other tests, and none of them can even tell me what’s wrong. I’m done. It’s worth the risk now.
This is what I did last Tuesday. I went in and had it done. I laid down on a scanning table while they tried to position the needle. The last time I had this done, it was a lot less unpleasant. The old doctor made a small incision to get the needle where it needed to be. I thought he did this just because of how big the needle was. It turns out, he did it for another reason as well. The spot where he needed to get to is directly beneath my surgery scar.
My new doctor apparently didn’t think the incision was necessary. So he pushed a big needle, which are considerably less sharp than the smaller ones, through my thick scar tissue. Even after the Novocain, it hurt like hell. It caused me to come pretty damn close to throwing up a few times, which would’ve been very bad when I had needles stuck in me. It was 33 grams of suck.
I took that day, and the one after, off of work and did almost nothing, per the doctors orders. While I love not doing anything, it’s a lot harder to do now that I have Baby E. It was tough not being able to pick her up and play with her for two days. For those two days, I didn’t feel anything in my back except for the spots where they injected the Novocain (after it wore off, of course), which were 6 spots along my lower back (where my pain was located). By the weekend, I didn’t feel anything at all in my lower back. Unfortunately, the rest of my back was hurting.
Because I’ve been in pain for so long, I’ve been favoring that one side of my back, which made me move a certain way. Since I wasn’t feeling that pain anymore, I went back to moving naturally. I’m not used to moving naturally, however, so some of my muscles were being used for the first time in years. Needless to say, I was smelling like Icy Hot for a few days. Icy Hot is not a very nice smell.
Now, it’s a week later and I think the shot is starting to wear off. The doctor told me that it doesn’t always take on the first try. I hope it’s just another muscle strain because I don’t want to have to go through that again. We’ll see. If I have to do it again, I’ll do it again. I can put up with it one more time if it means I’m not in pain anymore.